this one is for u anon!! we are at my favorite restaurant and they made this for me special! there are black beans, zucchini, squash, rice and little toastadas w guacamole :~) if u hurry we can share 😚
Just because some people show resilience or absence of grief does not mean they have something wrong with them, they’re not cold, they’re not defensive, it’s not that they never cared in the first place, and it doesn’t mean that they are suppressing any emotion. People who show absence of grief are just healthy. They accept reality.
emotions are a thing that happens, though.
i don’t think it means you’re healthier if you don’t encounter grief. i also don’t think absence of grief means you’re accepting reality - maybe sometimes it does - but also a lot of the times it’s the state of shock you go into before reality sinks in.
to me i don’t feel there’s anything necessarily wrong with not experiencing grief, but i don’t think there’s anything necessarily right about it either.
i’ve been creeping people’s personal posts and have decided it’s not a terrible idea to occasionally actually document your life on this. or like, somewhere.
also other thoughts are occurring to meee
there are so many heavenly people and people with heavenly qualities and it’s like, why not try to learn from them?
one such person that i am not too embarrassed to talk about here is someone from school. that person is just so… open and communicative and… helpful. and… humble. and there’s another word i’m looking for, what is it? i don’t know. uh… friendly? hahah i dont know
anyway wee! i also realize now it’s important to believe (/tell yourself) that things will get better.
it’s okay to be sensible once in awhile and try optimism. even if it feels a little fake. because i have a feeling that ending up okay has a lot to do with deciding you’re going to be. and maybe deciding you’re going to be has a lot to do with… this absurd form of resilience and spirit that i do not yet possess but hope to understand someday haha.
this isn’t coming out exactly the way i want it to.
anyway there ya go bye!
(jesus lord i forgot to do an actual update, which is like uhm… exams? i had one today? it’s snowing a lot. i don’t know. ok bye)
(i hope this gets less awkward)
(no i dont think i’ll be doing this every day, day 1 was in relation to something else nevermind og gshfsfs.)